December 17, 2011
A date in which my world came crashing down, like my tears when my mama told me
That you have gone without so much as saying goodbye
You waltzed out of the backyard and decided to never come back
You may not have noticed, but when you left, you took my heart, friendship, and trust
I came home expecting you to comfort me and allow me to tell you my day at school, to tell you about the boy across the hall or the ***** behind me, but no
I came to see my mother anxious and wide-eyed, looking for you, calling you name, walking down the street, into the alleys.
My smile was slapped off my face when she said "He got out again"
tears came and came, I knew this time was different
you were gone and weren't coming back, I can almost feel the anxiety on my neck
I ran, it was the only thing left to do, I ran as far as I could, far away from home, from my parents, from you.
But no matter how far I ran, everything reminded me of you.
I called your name, went everywhere we went.
Nada, I couldn't find you, I cried and cried ignoring the bitter cold that froze my tears to my red cheeks
I was hurt, upset, broken
As well as angry, infuriated, I wanted to hit something ANYTHING
So I did, that night I punched the wall until my knuckles were red. I mutilated the wall, my pillow, desk until I cried.
I cried that night, I still do.