every time my emotions get extreme i try to write,
but im not in tune with myself, ironic i still try,
i cannot comprehend to live or to die?
tell me who or what can attempt to answer why?
i try to talk to god and i try harder to listen,
but my hearings cloudy and i just cannot seem hear him,
due to the thoughts in my head, they start to question,
they are controlling, i am deep in their transgressions.
i have no control of myself, this isnt right.
all i want to know is the true meaning of life.