The first year I knew I liked you. The first year I liked you as a friend. The first half of the second year's when it changed. I still saw you as a friend, but something was different. You stood out, I found you cute, but you were still just a friend. At the end of the first half, I had to admit something. I admitted that if you did ask me out, I would say yes. But I wouldn't mind if you as some one else. ... Now I kind of would. ... Now I'd love you to ask me out, but at the same time I wouldn't I wanna be with you, but I don't want a distraction from school. I wanna know if you feel the same way, but I don't! If you ask me out I'd say yes in a heartbeat.
What does this mean? ... I think it means I like you. I'm torn- I want a boyfriend, I want you! I want to be your girlfriend, I want you to be my boyfriend. But at the same time, I don't. I don't want to ruin our friendship. So... if you ask me out... here's what I'd say: *... "Yes! but, school comes first. And... we'll always be friends right?"
(says in small voice) I tell him, but I don't know how.