Cradling myself back and fourth
my heads going to explode
nothings working
I can't control
...anything

the TV remote flies and hits the wall
its in pieces
so that's what the inside looks like

i want to rip my skin off
there's a small flame burning in my stomach
causing it to hurt
to slowly eat me away

It spreads through-out my body like a fire
my blood boils
sitting in front of a fan
I can still feel the heat rising

my thoughts are buzzing to quick to process
I simply don't know what to do
my head is heavy
a headache's rising
I'm still rocking back and fourth
what is it about this motion?

I'm scared and alone in a darkened room
waiting for it all to end
waiting to feel my heart beat
it just feels heavy
like a weight sinking into the ocean

I'm crazy
am i?

my head hurts
I can't breath
my eyes are blurred with tears
no one can help me

I'm loosing this battle
my sanity is slipping away
the thought of death brings more tears

I still can't feel my heart
but I know it must be there
why can't I feel it beating?
these are my words
not a prayer