Exhausted with a mind racing.
Need to rise in six hours,
mind still racing.

Thinking back on him,
about all of them.
Wondering about her response,
about whether she'll pounce.

He ruined me,
and now they are too.
My ability to trust is withering.
And if she doesn't respond,
I'm done for.

Dreaming of a trusting world,
analyzing every current and past
        detail,
not leaving out a single thing.
I hope to be happier,
but maybe that's impossible
if all these things and all these
        people
continue to wreck me.