I ******* hate those moments where
you feel your chest sink in,
or you feel your heart fall into your stomach
when you know something is going to end.
Those moments you can't breathe from the pain.
The moments you start crying in front of everyone,
and they all ask you whats wrong but you cant answer cause you think its ******* stupid as hell.

When you feel yourself start to hyperventilate.
When you feel people abandon you.
When you can tell someone doesn't want you around.

When you break down in the middle of the road while you were going to go get your ******* mail.
When someone tells you they don't need you.
When everything hits you like a semi-truck.

When you can't take anything anymore.

And to think you were getting better...