Sometimes I wonder why I lie in bed at night
With my eyes wide open
Thinking
Thinking
Thinking
Thinking about events of the day
Thinking about death
Thinking about life
Thinking about the mistakes I made
Or the times I messed up bad
I wonder why my thoughts go wild at night
Keeping me up
My mind exploding
Words flashing like bright lights
People's faces in my mind
Smiles and tears
Every morning when I wake up
Eyes heavy and tired
I know that the thoughts are worth it
But I never sleep, for these things
Appear in my dreams too
In different ways though
They tell me things
I would never be able to think of on my own
Sometimes I wish I could sleep
Just sleep
Without a dream
But I remember every one
Sleep becomes unimportant
When your nightmares become exciting battles
With sleep