I've never been that girl
You know what I'm talking about
the girl with the perfect hair and flawless body
contoured full lips and sparkling eyes ..

I look at myself and I see none of that
what do I see?
i see a girl who's sad and terrified
a girl who's drowning in her own fears
a girl who sometimes feels uncomfortable being in her own skin

I wanna feel good about myself again
I miss the days when I was a kid
when I didn't give two ***** about what anyone said about
but I grew and so did my insecurities
I need to start paying attention to myself and my needs

but don't get me wrong
I know there are things about me that are unique
like my quirky laugh and other things
I also know that I have to accept how things are
I can make it easy on myself or make it hard.