Holding on to everything Crumbling to dust in my hands There was never anything That made me whole, and I understand Although the things I’ve given Have not been lost in vain It was never meant for me To live without this pain Nothing that I’ve taken Will I ever give away These miseries I’ve stolen Will go with me when I fade
My gifts aren’t what I’ve given But what I take away I filled the emptiness inside By drinking in your pain Taking on your sorrow Giving laughter in return I’ve suffered under veils of smiles And bled your tears in turn I’ve saved you from these things that **** I’ve sometimes left you numb If nothing else, to save you So that you will not succumb
This pain is like an anchor It only pulls you down And the undertow of agony Will drag you from the shore I couldn’t say I love you If I stood and watched you drown Knowing I could save you From the fate you had in store
Never think I hated you For what I have confessed I was always happiest When I knew you suffered less Know it was my choice To draw your pain into my core The only thing that pains me Is I couldn’t help you more For my own private demons They still scar me to this day There was never anyone To take my pain away But I have learned to suffer Finding heaven in this hell Knowing I could keep you From the darkness where I dwell
To be the one to sit inside This unlocked cell of suffering Choking on the ashes Of memories that scream Failing every day To be the one who is recovering From agonies I’ve stolen So your sanity could breathe Saving you has saved me From the madness that entombs me Helping me to battle Through the darkest of my days I just hope that when this life Finally consumes me That you’ll be happy for me As they carry me away