Life is full of contradictions
but you don't know anger till you realize you're the biggest one.

I crave intimacy but cringe from affection
Want to be social but hate the forced conversation
Love myself but am crippled by my self-loathing.

Casual *** seems so intriguing till the next day;
you wake up in the morning questioning your intelligence.
One night stands don't fill holes, they simply drown your inner thoughts,
especially when hard liquor and a burning nose accompany you.

People are full of deceit, easily fake their compassion.
Their disinterest masked by a happy smile.
Two minutes later they could be smirking about you with a true friend;
judging every **** word you said.

Examining every inch of your body only ends in pity
There's too many flaws on me for love to ever manifest.
I want to improve but don't have the ambition.

I hate contradictions, ******* contradictions.