you claimed you knew me better than everyone else
but you really don't
you can't even tell when my smile is fake
you can't even tell i'm lying to you when i say,
"i'm fine."
if you actually knew me
like you say you do
then you would've been able to tell i was not okay
by just one glance in my eyes
because even though my smile was so bright
my eyes were weary, tired, watery
filled with tears
i was like a balloon,
just about ready to burst
but unlike a balloon
i would be bursting into tears
but i didn't want you to see me
in that state of mind
i didn't want you to see me
completely broken down
i want you to see me
as the strong person
you perceive me to be
i don't want to change your thinking of me
so i'll just pretend to be happy
i'll just pretend to be someone i'm not
i'll pretend to be
strong, bold, fearless
all things which do not describe me,
but you wouldn't know that,
because you don't know
the real me. //