I'm writing this to tell you how happy I am
With life
And you
And us

This has been a long time coming
Since October at least
I kept denying your advances
I couldn't let you in
At least not
In that way

I never thought that pushing you away
Was just causing you
To come closer

All I wanted was for you to get rid of me
Shut me out
Hurt me
Before I
Could hurt you

And eventually,
You did.
Those were the longest three days
Ever

I missed you
A lot
But that triple horror helped me to realize
That you leaving my life
Wasn't as easy
As I pretended it would be

I missed talking to you
About nothing
We text, snap, converse all day
Everyday about
Nothing
But that nothing means everything
To me

You mean everything to me
There,
I said it.
It's out there
Not just trapped inside my brain anymore

You're allowed to know
How I'm really feeling
I'm glad I can finally tell you how
I really feel

It's strange to think how important you've become
In just a matter of months
You've changed my life
For the better

Who would have thought
The crazy, weird, lanky
But technically tall, dark and handsome
Theater kid
Would capture my heart?

I certainly never would have guessed
But with your sugar-sweet words
And effortless chivalry and
Your crazy obsession with
Nic Cage
I found my National Treasure in the form of
You

So, Ryan,
Who knows where this will lead
Or how long it will last
All I know is that I'm really really
Happy
And a lot of that
Is because of
**You