There's so much on my mind my brain is about to explode
No longer having nothing to lean on or keep me whole
I've been disowned by half of my family because of decisions I've made
All the debts I have in life I'm beginning to pay
So many problems begin to bottle up inside
I keep them in 'well' at least I try
Here is a brief of what I'm going through
Sit back relax and read a poem of a fool
I got caught up in a relationship i can hardly handle
My whole life seems to be a scandal
I dropped out of school my biggest mistake
So far away i don't want to go back and that i hate
I've got a little sister who I've hurt so bad
The pain she have for me makes me sad
I'm in love and don't think the person feel the same
Everyday i wake up my life is going to waist
Finally heard from my mother who im eager to see
But the love for a man is more important than me
My father lost faith he is back on drugs
Wanting to erase everything and bring it back like it was
My older sister is doing her own thing
And for everything I just wrote I seem to be the blame
It seem like its small nut you don't understand
All I want is a helping hand
I want to grow up but I'm scared
I cant handle things now what will I do then
There is so much on my mind my brain is about to explode
Even with those that care for me I still feel alone




     i wrote this when i was 16 yrs old