I once wanted so
badly to die.

I once saw the world
with clouded eyes
a shrouded disguise
of pain and apathy

yet now things have
been looking up
my outlook on life
is improving

used to using a
fine language of suicide
confined to the
walls of my brain

I was contained
and chained
to the insane

but I broke it.
reversed the cycle
and routine

now it seems
as though
things are brighter

I made a conscious
decision after
living and learning
digesting lessons

from my conscience.

for once I have
a clear vision.

for a time it felt
like swimming
with eyes open.
so I closed em.

then lifted those
lids to find
the world looking
so different

a pure prism of
hope and such a
lifted perception.

now I have the motivation
and drive to strive everyday
to live to be alive.

it's such a sense
of euphoria
manifesting itself
inside,

I hold it and
keep it.
it's my best kept secret,

of an everlasting
eternal sunshine.