I just become a mess when other people are involved
What is it about this combination of cells that destroys me so thoroughly?
It's the same as my own
We aren't so different, these other humans and myself
Yet I fear them all so thoroughly
They all have the power to make or break me
And I mean break me
Leave me a crumbled mess for months, years
Leave me questioning every thought, word, action I spill forth into the world, wondering when will I next be judged?!
They all leave me with something
And I worry it's getting worse, as I meet more and more of these humans
They're so cruel
They peer at me with their cold, dark, eyes and their harsh voices fill my ears long after they've left
The words of things they've possibly thought and never said linger in my mind
The true meaning behind their sentences haunt my conscious
I am at the mercy of their words
At the mercy of such pitiful, cruel, creatures
Creatures who laugh and joke and play with one another,
Before snarling at others behind their back
Oh yes, people can be cruel they say
I know all about that