Apr 2014
April 15th, 2014
It snowed today for the first time in weeks. Is this an omen? I knew I could feel a certain darkness creep over me once more. School started at 8 o'clock this morning, I left at 8:30. It's magnificent and terrifying how feelings come and go and you cannot control it. No one can really control their emotions, they can only neglect them. My feelings are a rollercoaster and I'm afraid of heights. I fear to feel. The way I behave never seems to be good enough. It's tiresome when you work so hard for so long but your job is still not done. Will I ever get a break? Will I ever get to sleep? Maybe when I'm dead.
It snowed today for the first time in weeks. Is this an omen? I knew I could feel a certain darkness creep over me once more. School started at 8 o'clock this morning, I left at 8:30. It's magnificent and terrifying how feelings come and go and you cannot control it. No one can really control their emotions, they can only neglect them. My feelings are a rollercoaster and I'm afraid of heights. I fear to feel. The way I behave never seems to be good enough. It's tiresome when you work so hard for so long but your job is still not done. Will I ever get a break? Will I ever get to sleep? Maybe when I'm dead.
