Sleep all day and I'm tired when I wake up
Juggling the same thoughts that are longing to be forgotten
My tendencies focus on
the negative
the useless
an equation led by conditioning no doubt
resulting in thinking I'm less than nothing
when I know I have so much to offer
but a life dragged on by sadness
is all I've ever known.

With so much hate and fear
puzzling the pieces of me
when I thought there was nothing left
but a stubborn tough front
to my dismay I have discovered
there are reasons
waiting to be understood
for the way I am.

I just wish I knew what I was waiting for...