It's not because of you that I am this way
It's because of myself
I'm scared and paranoid
Walking around campus with my head down
Refusing to allow a negative interaction
Cigarette pursed between my lips
I pull my phone out for distraction
To distance myself from reality
And I see your name pop up
Instantly, remembering
Everything we've done
That makes me happy
That makes me sad
And when we spend time together
It's like nothing's changed
And then when I see you
With a guy that I don't know
It hurts me
It kills me
Because I know I'm not the only guy in your life anymore
Because I know that you don't love me, and that's okay
I just don't want you to find love elsewhere yet
I'm not ready
I can barely think about life truly without you
Let alone without you and with someone else
And it seems that you've moved on
That I'm an abandoned toy on a shelf
And I know it's too soon for you too now
At least that's what you tell me
I believe you
But too soon for a relationship doesn't mean too soon to talk
And talking can lead to anything
I just don't want my baby, my love, my life
To become someone else's
Not yet, not ever.
And I'm sorry
I'll let you choose your own way
I'm not going to tell you what I want you to do
It's your decision
But what I will do for you
Is show you I love you
Each and every ******* day
Until the day I keel over
Because Dana, you're worth it.
You are such a good person
And though all people deserve to feel love
You're the one that needs it most right now
And I'm happy to give it to you
I love you.
Always.