Mascara stained tears running down my cheeks as I cry. My leg becoming numb from the constant shaking of my sobbing body. My lungs, feeling empty, even when I take the biggest of gasps. My body begging for air. Begging for love. Begging for a hug from someone, and encouraging words to fall from their lips, though it's covered up. Begging for someone to tell me that I'll be alright. Staring at my ceiling during the sleepless nights I encounter, though nobody knows. My aching body, exhausted when I need to get ready to go out everyday, though it's covered up. My pounding headache, and loss of concentration, covered up. Nobody knows how I feel, because it's covered up. My vulnerability hiding behind a sheer cover foundation layer of happiness. Some see right through it, but you don't. You force yourself to think I'm okay, when I'm not. And then you try to force me too.
I know this poem is like really messy and jumbled up, but so is my brain.