I already forgot how it is to feel him
now I feel someone different entirely, body mind and soul
with so many connections
how can you tell the false ones
when they feel so irrevocably real in that moment
how many people am i
that i can contort to fit each soul

maybe that was the problem  

maybe that is the solution

to find a likeness
not exactly similar but accepting
of the complexity and wonder that
explodes like colors, leaves, cotton on heavy summer air
slowly falling and resting on you
and you never bother to brush it off
like he did