I've become the girl my mother told me to avoid.
I'm the friend you shouldn't hangout with
The **** who can't say "no" to the boys
I make impulsive decisions
My demons and I are one..
I don't think of the consequences, only of the fun

I hurt people I love, simply by hurting myself
I admit I inhaled the drugs knowing what they would do to my health

And for some reason.. I was okay with it all
In that moment, I didn't care that I would eventually fall
I wanted the high, and I wanted the low
I wanted to scream it out!
I wanted you to know.
I wanted to say "*******!" for sleeping with my friend
I wanted to call you a liar and say "Never again."
I wanted to slap that smile off your face and watch you grovel on the floor..
I wanted to.. but I didn't, because I'm the one who is the *****.

I used to give others so much trust,
Believe in every promise they made.
But all the tears have turned my heart to rust
And all my compassion and loyalty is corroding away

Deep inside I feel the innocent girl I used to be
I cry for her, and she cries for me
I feel her reach out her hand into the darkness of my soul
And this time, instead of relying on someone else to grab it,
I'm gonna reach in and pull.
And when she emerges,
that beautiful, caring, loving dove
I'm gonna surround her with nothing but pure beauty and love.