i finally knew what pain felt like
when you slapped me across the face in the middle of the night
and my cheeks heated like fire because i just wasnt good enough

i finally knew what regret felt like
when i let you leave on the 4am train that night
and couldnt get off of my couch for weeks because my heart had turned to lead and my bones shifted into stones

i finally knew what hate felt like
when i realized you had used me as your stomping grounds
smashing the gardens between my bones into dust and broken dreams

i finally knew i was over you
when the caller ID read your name and
i
didnt
pick
up