I found an ache
When I heard
The word engaged
And realized it's what
I no longer am

I found an ache
When I saw
Someone's cheek being kissed
And the sound muah
Reverberated through me
And I realized you no longer
Kiss my freckled cheek
And the air hits it
Hard and forceful
Reminding me of what
I no longer have

I found an ache
When I smelled
The trees
Because you once said
I smell of roses and wood
And I realized
No one else has
Taken the time to
So nicely analyze my smell
And now I feel as though
My smell is fake
And completely unpleasant
And it reminds me of
A part of me I no longer am

I found an ache
Whenever I taste ham
Because I do each day
Thinking of you
Thinking of your odd food
Indulgences and how they
Made me smile
And now I realize
The smile I no longer
Bare and it reminds me
Of what I no longer have

I found an ache
When my glasses
Touched my face
Because it reminded me
Of all the times
You tried convincing me
That I looked beautiful
With and without them
And I realized that
Without you
I no longer have confidence
In who I am.