I used to enjoy long car rides at 2 in the morning while the only noise we heard was the soft music playing as you held my hand,
Now music is the only sound we hear because we no longer have anything to say.
You used to stare at me without saying anything because you admired me from head to toe,
Now you stare at me in silence and wonder why you're still with me.
We used to sit near the ocean tide and fall asleep next to each other in the wet sand because we liked feeling the salty water rushing over our toes,
Now you fall asleep only to make time pass faster.
I was never comfortable with the silence in my own head,
But lately you're all I've been able to think of.
If I could say anything that would persuade you to stay,
I'd remind you of the time we went on a hike and you fell in love with the way my eyes wondered around admiring everything that crossed our path.
Even though I've gotten close to losing you before,
I'm running out of excuses to give you to make you believe things will only get better.
Sometimes I make myself believe that I rather be alone than always starting my days worrying that today will be the day you will finally reach for the door,
But the feeling you give me when you kiss my forehead makes the days filled with anxiety worth it.
The weather's been tense and I think I need you more than ever,
I'm walking through the empty streets while you're in bed not even thinking of me.
You take me through the vapid ride of an emotional rollercoaster I can't seem to get off of,
And even though I wish you would just leave instead of giving me this feeling I hate,
You can lay with me until there's no more stars in the sky to look at.
I guess im just a poet who no longer knows how to find the right words to say.