I want to learn from the poet Charles Bukowski, A man among men; with a bottle in hand, a literate womanizer without any plan. For he writes of growing old and the loss of love, and his lonely words project his loss. For a womanizer is the truest love, one who wishes to love but is so afraid, resorting to getting occasionally laid. So I wanted to learn how to love, and lie; while smoking a cigarette, and holding a bottle of wine, but I don't want to be Mr. Bukowski, for I wish to have love and lost, but not at my vanities cost.