Looking back on everything that happened so fast I have now realized I was forcing logic upon a situation that made no sense.
I was blaming you because the truth of facing the reality that it really all does fall down on me.
You were the one to come back into my life I was the one to believe all the lies this may not be the most beautiful way but all things I have long needed to say.
You Broke Me. Leaving me scarred, when the dust settled I gathered in the pieces of myself My one remaining standing At best, fragmented. A Crooked Smile.
Then you come crashing through obliterating and consuming it all quite like the perfect storm making me fall and once again the pain makes me.
I now see and feel and know enough to never look back.
To have your wildest dreams spread out in front of you Not wanting to know, what is sure to come Hoping for the best, giving benefit to doubt Everything so close you can practically taste it Then all in one night, ripped out of sight, instead making light of your worst nightmares.
I wouldn't ever wish that on my worst enemy... But I would wish that on you.