Apr 2014
I have been hanging on by a thread for several months now.
I feel so emotionally fragile
that I feel like a strong wind could ******* away.
I don’t expect anyone to understand.
I used to…but I really don’t anymore.
Because of the uncontrollable rage and terror and hopelessness,
I have engaged in self-destructive behavior (nothing illegal [yet]).
I have cut myself, drank too much, taken too many pills.
I have screamed and cried
Banged my head against the wall and the floor.
I have begged God to let me die
Begged Him to help me live.
I feel so emotionally fragile
that I feel like a strong wind could ******* away.
I don’t expect anyone to understand.
I used to…but I really don’t anymore.
Because of the uncontrollable rage and terror and hopelessness,
I have engaged in self-destructive behavior (nothing illegal [yet]).
I have cut myself, drank too much, taken too many pills.
I have screamed and cried
Banged my head against the wall and the floor.
I have begged God to let me die
Begged Him to help me live.
Don't even know which way to turn anymore...everything I touch turns to crap. I am a utter failure and disappointment for so many. I am able to see what possible reason there is for continuing. Why?? Why continue to struggle??? I vote cut the losses now and end it! If anybody has something to say different, say it now otherwise I am gone.
Deuces.
Deuces.
