I broke down And I cried so hard And I prayed And I told God That I'm doing This for me now I'm gonna read The Bible I'm gonna pray And I will Find a way To get to Heaven I told God That I love him And that I love you And that I'm hurting And that I want your happiness Though I wish it was with me I cried harder At the admittance Of my Christianity Then when my heart Was smashed And maybe you were right And I was wrong But I asked God for help And I have faith He will save me That I can save me And that I will see you Even if its in heaven Our hearts Our souls Will meet again.
I feel stronger. Im still crying but it feels like a relief. Like something in me finally snapped into place.