I am difficult.
I can no longer breathe your air.
I can no longer dream your dreams.
I am not searching.
I am not finding.
I am only confusing myself.

Ff I wander far too far, then I've found the means to an end.
I wonder about wandering, I wander into wondering.
I know the feeling.

I can stay forever.
if forever isn't real.
I can dream forever,
and I think I will.

I look your way, I see it.
I see your way.
I follow. I lead.
I need a caution sign.

Don't.

I am a trap.

a contradiction.
a letter to yourself.

forgotten.
long gone.

I pretend. Though I cannot for one moment pretend to know how to tell you the truth.

I am walking in circles.
pacing the room.
taking my time,
making my mind up.

I choose.
no.
I can't.

I want.

static cling.

I
fear
pond
monsters.

I want to build memories.
A moment that isn't worth a memory, isn't worth the time it took.
So bring me with you.
take me past the atmosphere, to a world where we belong.
I belong only with you.

allow me the choice.
I will analyze you.
us.
our situation.

it *****.  

I lose,
every time.
This is no game,
but I'll play it like one.

I'll drink to you,
to the way you make me feel.
that smile in your eyes.

that look that says "I can't remember how to look away"

I wonder if ever you see this look in my eyes.
or do you only see fear?

do you ever see how greatly I want to escape.
to run.
to never look back.
never see again.

I can't imagine.

I don't deserve the things I have.
I take what I shouldn't.


You should just turn around, and walk away.
Best advice I can give.

Where do I go from here?
Where are you going??

can I come with you?

I fear I've fallen for you.
and that can't be changed.