Eyes open
mouth open
inhale.

INHALE.
oxygen!

new day,
must remember how to breathe.
while in my sleep,
my body pleaded to forget.

I wake.
I gasp.
I grasp.
I am suffocating.

Nightmares,
or are they?

Go back to sleep,
body will not function.
You are not breathing.
you are still dreaming.

I accept.

process,
repeated.

eyes open.
mouth open.
hesitate to inhale.

Body shakes,
quivers.
Nightmares,
for sure.

stand,
wake,
live.

believe in today,
make a change.
you will be fine.
you will survive.

6.19,
afraid to sleep.

today is the day.
you will be fine.

eyelids begging,
trick of the nightmares.
"fall asleep,
I will carry you"

Process,
repeated.

today is the day.

eyes open.
mouth open.
no need to gasp.
no need for nightmares.

Fall asleep,
stay asleep.
beg for nightmares.
weep
in the presence of my spirit.

"you are alone,
you will be alone,
I am all you have"
whispers from the depths of my soul.

I am living
the nightmare.

Process,
repeated.

eyes open
mouth open
may as well inhale.