for a while I've been confused--- lots of hours spent detangling my hair in the shower, wondering if I should sit down or stand up or lean, wondering how it is possible to be sort of sad or kind of not really sad. I've always had problems with letting go and I told my mom I haven't tried with anyone because I don't like feeling that way I don't like the strange jealousies that come with falling for a face but the truth is, it's all about chris and it has been for months now. Because loving him is loving an old-self, because loving him is loving an old-self, because who I love isn't there? And who he loved isn't here (maybe I'm just saying that) but there have been lots of hours spent detangling my hair in the shower wondering if I should sit down or stand up. Lots of hours.
(c) Brooke Otto 2014 I haven't wanted to write this down.