The sheets that smell of your face That once told me That I was beautiful I lay often blinking Away the tears That well from your silent love The way your nose touches my cheek When you press against me In the night Tells me all the things that I want to hear out loud I want you to scream them I want you to feel them so burningly that the fire On your teeth turns sweet Its because I don’t understand love I don’t really know what it is, so I keep looking But I’m looking in the wrong places I know where to look but its scary there Because it’s inside of me
And inside of me its dark So dark in fact that even dark doesn’t exist No light ever touched me No sound has ever caressed me No breeze has ever whispered upon anything but my skin because inside me, there is a nothing. And I say a nothing on purpose Because there is an essence that cannot be defined It cannot be touched or explained Or even described but its there, and it sits forever It listens to the rain of emotions and thoughts That batter against the windows of my eyes It sits so deliciously still So still that when I taste it A fountain of gentle love flushes my spine So that I feel far too pleasant To be able to love you Because If I loved you that much If I covered you in all the nothing that Rests attentively inside of me I wouldn’t even have my nothing left. It would just be you Only you And I would be your skin holding you together While giving you all the sensitivity Of every nerve in the universe.