i surprised myself by how quickly i trusted you. i handed you all my secrets with no thought of the outcome. and although perhaps it was the liquid courage that punctured a hole in the heart of my fear of exposure that night, the next day and the following days after i was unusually filled with relief, no trace regret. you are someone i am forever grateful to have met. and when i cherish someone with my whole heart i give myself no choice but to show them all of me not as a test but as a rest, like a pause in a sheet of music or a moment of silence in a room full of people. trust is an art form, it requires practice. but sometimes you will meet someone you feel you have met before, perhaps in another life or universe - all you know is that your souls are connected. and so you feel the need to remind them of who you are, with no eclipse of the ego to distort you. i wonder if it scared you, if it made you feel things you forgot you could feel. when i told you that i am not very good at concealing my emotions, i called it a curse and you disagreed. in retrospect, i can see that that was your way of appreciating my honesty. blessings are almost always disguised as curses, it just requires a true connection between two people like us to strip the truth of its blackness, to lay down naked side by side underneath the radiant glow of the night sky, to speak of things we previously deemed unspeakable, to watch our fears explode like fireworks inevitably parting ways in the wee hours of the early morning, twin souls endlessly, tenderly entwined.