I was so sure that one day I would
lay with you, skin radiating and soul
luminous after I opened my mind
and body to you just moments
before.

but you make me want to
open my body in a way
that only involves
blood.

I took my cord and I
unplugged it in hopes that
I would function
again.

But I don't know how to function
in the real world and I know my
sweat will never quench anyone's
thirst.

Even when in the process
of disintegration, please know
that my skin is no white
flag.

I will find my way home and
I will lay with her, my skin
radiating and my soul shining. Then I will
know

What it finally feels
like to be
in the eye of a
tornado.