I agree that I cannot have you
and you seem to be avoiding me almost
as much as I've been trying to avoid you
but God did a fabulous job making that
eye roll you do when you aren't fascinated
and your smile, how it goes from zero to earth-shaking
in a split second
and how when you run, you pointedly don't look at the sidelines
but I know you can hear me.
In fact, I know you can always hear me-
when I'm giving love advice to anybody and telling them to go for it
and then inform them, "I'm projecting."
when I'm talking about my achievements to someone else because I'm scared you won't care.
when I talk about boys to maybe let you know I don't care and maybe make you jealous.
And I think you don't analyze these things nearly as much as I do-
but to say there is a mundane reason for everything you do is to discredit you.
I'm pulling a Darcy
and I'm scared you're the type of Lizzy
to leave forever and never look back.