More than almost anything right now I want an unconditional friend
I'm very lonely
When I lose it because sometimes that happens
I am trapped in a small box and it shrinks as the knot in my stomach grows and maybe the sound of someone's voice would make it stop or break the box entirely
I reach out sometimes
Because there is people I love and I believe that they love me
But it's like I can't express things in any of their languages
I don't think I've ever been understood by a person
I just want to say it sometimes but it scares me
No one replied that night
I was scared and I was alone
I dealt with it by myself

A.m