Just as the shadows folded themselves into the hills for the night and the sun dropped its enveloping glint into the corner of the looking glass
I drove slowly past your suicide
I could imagine the scene as if I was there You were pitifully slumped over the dashboard the telltale spray of sacrificial lamb's blood across the back window confirmed you sold your mind in a shotgun barrage sale The passenger door hung opened as if ominously inviting all lost souls to join you Birds circled but did not dare descend
I don't know why you wanted to be buried so far from home maybe you knew that we would simultaneously haunt each other with a lost love that never fully made sense
I've been a ghost town since your unsettling impersonal departure The drive down was haunting...waking nightmares and dulling pain with whatever I could get my hands on Mumbled ranting fever dreams of not so sacred cows skipped over songs and roadside immolation
Now I'm here
and they're casting lots for your belongings Without explanation my mind drifts to the moment we come into the world screaming as the air hits your lungs for the first time they put you in your first tiny pair of clothes and you are so loved in those first days We blink into existence Dance in its splendor Sulk in its darkness then we are gone just as fast as they lower us into the ground no longer screaming wrapped in our last set of clothes I turn away from their morbid possession dissection because you already gave me so much the weight is heavy enough I look to my brother without saying a word and he knows it's time for the long journey home