I wish you the best Along with your death Scars fading just like your kisses, Coated with a love filled hatred
The day we first met The night burned bright The moon lighting that first Laced joint, tainted by tears Of your shattered heart Kept alive by a little girl Asking if you're alright She was me at age 9 Just wanting to see you Smile
We grew to realize we weren't so different Pushed away by those we only wanted To make proud We'd stay up late and smile That we'd finally found someone Who understood how it felt to Be alone and starved for a love That was more than just Touch
Grade eight the love started Innocence of Colliding lips blowing Smoke of putrid chemicals Acid burning through their tongues THC thicker than our blood Laughing at the people who Thought they were better than us They weren't We were the king and queen of chaos Collecting the shells of shattered Beings and making them alive Again An angry army of Broken hearts and high minds
The first slap came Five months in love In the school halls Everyone stopped and stared I just laughed and so did they You didn't You stared at your hand As if it had acted on its own I pretended it didn't happen even though my Friends warned me that This was only the beginning I should have listened Why didn't I listen?
Was I blinded by love or was it Fear? I think it was love You were everything to me My heart My soul My future
High school came And brought around change He got me to do More than I ever wanted Dmt Shrooms Pills The rest My life became a pool of ****** up lies and a disguise Made of a chipping smile And dying eyes
His world scared me Intoxicated me Brought me to tears Annihilated me It was beautiful I never felt more alive
The slaps continued Got worse I stayed because I knew he loved me He loved me Right?
He wouldn't have Held me all those nights Kept me alive Healed my cuts And sewed me back Together
Then came the day His fingers curled around my throat In front of All those who had warned me All except one She hadnt known I told him to leave I let him go It was too much Too much Imsorry
To this day The pain still shows The memories remain I'll never understand What I did wrong Did I do wrong?
Was it my fault? Was I not enough? Were my hands too much? Did my touch burn right through your skin Into the wounds on your guts?
I made the blood Boil and burn Till your bones became nothing But charred ashes That burned holes through your heart Scared you weren't good enough Scared I would leave That you weren't enough
But god did we try We tried to stay alive On a love built from pain Brought on by those We Just Wanted To Love
Forever was never ours, but we tried old friend. Oh how we tried. I wish you happiness and luck but when death comes, your after life won't be kind