Perked here on the edge of my bed,
It feels so cold.
The mattress is as sharp as a knife

that I long to plunge through my veins...

Sharp

Just like the thoughts of you that run through my head,

A headache,
The only ache that takes over the pain from the blade
that continues to slice through my arm,
I am alone
I am so alone.

I pick up my phone and my eyes fill up
as my finger scrolls through the words that hit you straight in the heart,

I miss you

My heart bled
Yet I keep pushing you away
You don't understand...
You won't understand!

I lay back
My shoulder blades digging in to the metal of my bed
I'm hurting you
This has to stop
I don't mean to upset you
I just want to drop

Down
Dead.