with pill-
more happies
and getting things done

without-
sit expression
knowing one equals one

with pill-
keeping blood draining
thinking at bay

without-
know the me
and the just what to say


the struggle
the turning
  the struggle
   and learning

               the deepen
                 the reap and
                    I keep
                        so to speak

                (this,)

  the falling
    the landing
       the focus
          expanding
  
                                    ­  and

                                                       when will I see  _ _ _  again?