this is where I dwell now,
still doesn't feel right.
not like I can just turn around and go back.
different tools used to numb my head,
quiet the chatter in my brain,
going back there I know, it wouldn't be the same.
so a smile covers and polishes the lies,
pretend like everything is just oh so fine,
there's no choice to be made, no path less taken to choose,
this is where I dwell now.