i love to be sad.
not because it's beautiful,
no,
cutting your skin is not beautiful.
it is ugly and messy/
i like sadness because it helps me keep
my sharp tongue in my mouth
and my lips closed tight.
don't you say things you regret when you're soaring up in the happy sky?
i do.
it is not beautiful.
but what is also ugly
is losing interest in pleasing your partner
and reading your books
and eating
and drinking
and living.
it is not beautiful.
it is a hindrance
but i love it.