i am human so human that i can taste it feel the bitter jealousy in my throat taste the deliciously toe-curling want that seeps from my pores. i make mistakes, they fall from my lips and my eyes and my heart like the jarring notes of an untuned guitar etching themselves permanently upon the eardrums and minds of errant souls.
it does not feel divine. it burns, shrivelling up my insides bit by bit, step by step. my soul smoulders like a cigarette, scattering ash on my mind.
mistakes. we all make them some are worse than others, some eventually turn out to be for the best. some people are smart, they learn from their mistakes then there are people like me, whose mistakes define their very lives.
you are my personal mistake. the reason my lungs have shrivelled into smoke the idea behind the erratic thumping of my graceless heart the reason jealousy burns like bile in my throat when I see you look at someone else. you're the punk in my rock the salt in my tears the tar in my lungs.
mistakes. sometimes they just happen, and you have to get up and go scattering ashes in your wake leaving your tears to flow like a river in your memories.
go. grow. you are strong. you are beautiful. you are not a mistake and never will be again.