i don't know how one million things get broken all at once and i don't know how to fix them either so please don't ask me why i hate the sound of knuckles cracking or why i can't sit still.
i identify as the sound of eyes closing and the breathing i heard over the phone with my ex-girlfriend when we still admitted we loved each other. i don't take it back but i still wish i could. i am someone who will repeat words without a trigger warning attached to them like **** or dumb or sorry and i will never stop apologizing for the things i say when i am a woman and i don't care if you see me that way.
i have to understand that i cannot be two things at once, i am either with it or without it and i remember how you talked to me like we were nervous and shaking and we were, i promise. we were probably the closest thing to the fastest movements on earth, we were probably in space too.
i don't know what i'm talking about, all i know is that i am getting my wisdom teeth taken out in the morning and i will be just fine, thank you for asking. i know that i will hold you in the future and that's for **** sure.