Why can't I just speak? I had an hour with you Just you and me A whole hour And I couldn't even do it. I couldn't muster up the courage To bring up Anything I tried But I couldn't Every time I opened my mouth Intending to speak My conscious began to scream No It felt like invisible hands were suffocating me Shoving the words back down To the place they came from Why? I trust you I really do I care I really do So why? Why am I still afraid? I don't have anything to fear? Do I? I just want to be able to speak with ease I want the words to fall smoothly from my mouth I desperately want to apologize I want to tell you what I think I want to listen But first I have to speak I want to speak But I don't want to say the wrong thing I don't want to offend you Or stir up anger But I'm pretty sure I don't actually have to worry about this I don't But I still do And until I let this go I will struggle to speak