Because in this moment I feel 80% lesbian
and 20% straight
Because I've never desired a woman
like this before
Because curiosity
will be my Eve's apple
And because I've realised that I relish the temptation
above its release

Because she is special
- and I mean beautiful in mind and spirit
- and I mean graceful in body and word
- and I mean life itself seems to sparkle from her smile

Because this may be me coming out to the world and saying:
I don't care if you are female or male
if you're beautiful and amazing and wonderful
then ****-it-all!! I might just have to love you

Because all I really want to do
Is hold her hand
or hug her tight

...
And I'm scared
I'm scared that if it went any further
we wouldn't be two souls sharing something beautiful
this deep intimate connection
or love
or beauty itself divine
emotions soaring, smiles wide

Instead we might just be
Two bodies
Trying vainly for the highest of ****** pleasures
Hormones gushing -
gaining only a sinful moment

Because I'm scared that
I am just a romantic
And anything more than bathing in her smiles light
May make these moments
lose their beauty
- instead being shrouded in the knowledge
that follows temptations release
The understanding that
she is beautiful and untouchable and I
I, straight, female, me
I cannot share in more than that smile
I may only revel in the touch of her hand
or occasional embrace

Do I need anything more?
No. The beauty, the temptation, the agony
is divine.
But. Still. I long to know.