The only memories I can recollect seem to be the most painful ones It's difficult to keep the thought of you in a cage I hand built and lock it with a rusty key that's sharp edges dance on my fingertips until they draw blood Hospital rooms are as familiar as the outline of your lips Sometimes I wear your shirt to bed but my tears have long washed away the smell of your skin I don't know what to do without your hand intertwined with mine so I keep it balled into a fist instead I'm sorry I couldn't fill you when I am empty myself