I want to do something crazy
Something no one expects of me
I want to watch their faces as they lose the respect they had for me
I want to smile as I destroy myself, in hopes of bringing you back to me

Every last goodbye kiss we shared
With all the scars we tried to heal
Each of us wondering which one really cared
Which one one understood how the other would feel
Saying whatever comes to mind
Just to keep the mood soft and kind
Neither of us dared to bring up the truth
We only smile and pretend to be happy when really we're just blind

So, please wake me up when this is over
Shake my heart and make me believe I'm safe again
And as I scream and cry you to prove it
Hold me
Hold me and tell me all the lies I need to hear
Please forgive me for the disbelief
But it was you...
You, who was my biggest fear