I created words in you
that you didn't even know
existed with every sigh
of my name.
I don't know what
changed in you to
make you want me back
but fire and water danced
in your belly like Armageddon.
I had never wanted to kiss
another human being more
in my entire life.
Your image flooded my brain
and named itself captain
of this ship.
You gave me orders and
asked questions you already knew
the answers to
And i fell into submission when
I'd much rather have fallen into bed sheets.
It was 5 o'clock in the morning
and a war was raging in my mind.
Should i stay?
Or should i go?
I liked when my days began
and ended with you,
not at 3:47.
What i would give to see
12 am and be satisfied again.
Your tongue spoke a language
i was forgein to
but i became comfortable in your mysteriousness.
I began to see you as a puzzle,
a game that i slowly started to earn
all the pieces to.
But when the game turned sour
and i started to lose
(not just you but myself)
I realized that those words you said
were never genuine
and i could never be your heart or engine
so i gave up trying to win
and instead picked up the puzzle
piece by piece
and explained to myself that you
were never a home
just a mere hostel in a country far away
and no matter how hard i tried
to be the only one
there were always others living there too.