I feel the food go down my throat,
And I tell Finn I have to leave
“I have to edit a paper I just wrote”
That lie goes up my sleeve

I walk casually to the bathroom
Eyes blank as walls
I need to get rid of this fume!
This self-hate that just evolved

I lock the door, and approach the mirror
Staring at my nothingness
My mouth and finger become nearer
As I make myself gag in hopefulness

30 minutes later, I see my friend Finn
My hands and fingers trembling
“Are you ok?” “Where have you been?”
I say “Nowhere, just thinking”

I wake up the next morning, and it starts the next day,
The boat becomes afloat,
Delicious breakfast eaten off my tray
“I have to edit a paper I just wrote”